i'm no beauty queen, just a beautiful me

Jul 16

even though i shouldnt and you did me wrong, i miss US.

i miss

the way we could lay down and listen to eachothers hearbeat forever
when you would look at me and say i love you
when you wipe away my tears when i cried
and when i would do the same for you
when we would hold hands under the dinner table
when i would be on the phone and you would kiss me so i couldnt talk
when i jumped on you and wouldnt let go
how when i was crying you made me look you in the eyes when i talked to you
how you would always tell me you loved me
when we wore matching Jets’ jerseys to school
when you made me the best birthday card ever
how we would play football together
when you pick me up in the middle of a hug in the hallway
our phone calls that lasted for hours
how you would hold me in your arms while you cried
how we would fight over the stupidest stuff and then in a couple hours be madly in love again

most of all, i miss the memories. as confusing as it is, i can say “fuck you” and “i love you” at the same time.